16years of semen wastage/helpless mastubation/Japa
Question
Namaste Dhananjay,
You are doing great service to mankind by your contributions. I have a few questions to ask on brahmacharya.
1) I am approaching 30 years old. I have wasted almost 16 years to pornography and masturbation. I must have lost terrible amounts of semen. I am 29 now. If I start brahmacharya, is there any possibilty of recuperation, or the damage done due to so much waste of semen is irreversible?
2) For past 2 years, I have been reading on and off on brahmacharya from Swami Sivananda. I have experienced that for about 14 days, I am able to control myself, 15th day onwards, I get super restless and am unable to concentrate on God. However, If i release the tension by masturbation and porn again, I am able to concentrate on God. Can this be done? Or is it sinful?
3) Swami Sivananda recommends japa mantra to aid in replacing evil samskaras. Can I seek advise if I can chant japa on 'Saranam Ayyappa' as my favourite deity has been Lord Ayyappa. (It's an irony that a devotee of Ayyappa like me has been drenched in the cesspit of masturbation and pornography despite being to sabarimala for 2 years).
Awaiting your spiritual advice.
Rgds,
Saravanan
Answer
1. Take up a life of Yoga & Brahmacharya in thought, word and deed. The ill-effects of your past lifestyle will slowly unwind and help you come out of the trap. The results will depend on the honesty with which Brahmacharya is practiced.
2. Gradually increase the period of Brahmacharya and strive for longer and longer periods of practice. Donot indulge in a willful break of Brahmacharya. Our efforts should be cent percent. Willfully breaking Brahmacharya amounts to failure indulged with full cognition & awareness. This should be avoided.
3. A life of Yogic practices and lifestyle will be required if Brahmacharya is to become established and natural. Mere Japa (chanting the Lords name) will not suffice for a beginner, as his Bhakti (devotion) is obscured by past karma. The complete Yogic lifestyle and practices are necessary to break and dissolve this past karma. Go through each and every past answer slowly and absorb the essence. Applying these principles and methods with devotion to God will help one to make Brahmacharya the default mode of lifestyle.
ॐ तत् सत्
(That Supreme being is the absolute truth)