Troubles from a past relationship

QUESTION: Om shri Hanumante Namah !!
Dear SIr,
My self Pranav Bhardwaj pursuing MBBS from China and i'm 21 yrs old.
Sir i am practicing Yoga from last 3 months and following strict brahcharya. i have deep interest in yoga and deep faith in Lord Hanuman.My grandpa is the inspiration to me for turning my life and practicing yoga and though i am doing it feeling great pleasure in it. But i want to grow more and more in this aspect of life and want to achieve kaivalya but my grandpa is not ready  to guide me and teach me more about this aspect of yoga because i am from other field and he thinks if i will indulge in this more i will be deviated from my goal and dream of life to become a good surgeon.

So any guidance from you will be very helpfull for me to grow in the yogic aspect of life. As i am a raw material who wants to transform my self in a yogi..what practices should i do to become a oordhvareta step by step progressing towards kevalaya ...

Please Hold my Hand and Guide me through your Experience...

Regards
Pranav

ANSWER: 1. The practice of Yoga & Brahmacharya does not in any way become an impediment to materialistic success or career growth. Rather, one will have a mature and dispassionate attitude towards desire and attachment, which will help prevent the trouble arising from attachment and clinging to desires. The conservation of Veerya will give much strength, concentration, memory and willpower which will help one to perform better in all fields of life. Only that which God has destined to be worked out by this body and mind of ours in this life will transpire, try how hard we may to do the opposite. Hence it is incorrect to think that the practice of Yoga & Brahmacharya will come in the way of materialistic success. The true Yogi is neither attached to materialistic success, nor affected by failure.  He neither looks for pleasure, nor for pain. He rises BEYOND these opposites, fixes himself in his Atmic state of 'Sat-Chit-Ananda' (knowledge-existence-bliss) and remains a witness to the happenings of this illusory world.

2. Go through each and every past answer to get clear with the methods required to succeed in Brahmacharya. Apply these practices for a complete year with faith and devotion to God, seeking Kaivalya (liberation). Then, you will get a foot hold in this path and build a foundation for further progress. All the practices and the necessary lifestyle required to reach the state of an Urdhvareta and proceed further are available in these past answers. These guidelines are based on the advice from the scriptures written by liberated, self-realized masters and backed by study, application & personal experience from my side.

ॐ तत् सत्
(That Supreme being is the absolute truth)

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QUESTION: Om Shri Hanumante Namah !!
Pranamm Dhananjay Ji,
Thank you very much sir for your guidance and answer..
Sir as i told you that i am following strict barhmcharya from last 3 months...and practicing asanas and bandhas.. But in this week i had nocturnal emission twice .does it mean my vow of brahmcharya is broken and i have to start from the beginning...what should i do to stop this problem as allopathy consider this incident as normal happening....but i am not willing to loose a single drop.. so please guide me and the the possible solutions and also about the continuity of the vow...really i have to start from the beginning ??

With Regards
Pranav Bhardwaj

ANSWER: An involuntary emission in the dream state while asleep does not amount to a break in vow. However, the true Brahmachari takes all effort to never, ever loose even a single drop of his vital fluid, for any such loss leads to dilution of practice. At the start of Brahmacharya, the flow of semen is downwards (from many years and births of such habit). It takes time for the body and mind to start redirecting semen upwards through transmutation. As the process of transmutation becomes more efficient, wet dreams will gradually reduce in frequency. Read each and every past answer slowly and get clear with the mthods that are to be employed.

When the Yogi becomes an Urdhvareta after many years of honest and unbroken practice, he gets completely free from wet dreams. Semen itself does not get formed when Bindu (seed) becomes steady in the region of the brain in such a Yogi. Such a Yogi is most of the time in the thought of God, swimming in the bliss of Brahman, through meditation. “Urdhvareto bhaved yasya, sa Devo na tu Maanushaha” - “One who has become an Urdhvareta is then the equivalent of a ‘Deva’ (celestial God) though possessing a human body and is no longer a man” - say the scriptures. Such an Urdhvareta Yogi becomes very powerful and can do various things using this power for his own good (self-realization) and for the good of others as a representative of the Almighty.

Persevere in the direction described with honesty and dedication. Meditate much, whenever possible. One’s attitude should be – “I will give up anything and everything but not Brahmacharya (which is the highest way of prayer and sacrifice to show love to God). Brahmacharya is my life, my blood and my very being. Never shall I indulge in those activities that lead to loss of the divine and precious Veerya which is the representation of the Almighty Brahman himself”. Then, after many years of such unbroken practice, Brahmacharya becomes effortless and natural.

ॐ तत् सत्
(That Supreme being is the absolute truth)

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QUESTION: Pranam Dhananjay JI...
your previous reply and guidance gave me strength to overcome the misery which i was having in that relationship ...i started studying now..But there are few troubles i am having don't know what exactly they mean and what to do..??
1) i completely stopped all the contacts with her and now don't want to marry her but still she some time calls me but i never received her calls ..i am trying to convince my family that i don't want to get marry to her but they are not ready to listen to me ..and that puts me in immense pain by thinking that BALA JI Maharaj is not doing justice with me as she cheated on me and lied which i came to know by My GURU JI and somewhat by my self ..no body is believing me ..everbody is blaming me and considering me as a liar and hypocrite..Dont know what to do ?
These memories and things comes in my mind specially when i am practicing yoga which diverts my mind..

2) As i am following brahmcharya in words,deeds,and thought and practicing Asana,pranayama And TriBandha( Mulbandha 30 min) still had wet dreams 5 times last month but now i am doing good...
Despite being honest in practice from past few days i am having some lust full thoughts which are trying to break my vow but so far i am controlling by grace of almighty but today i saw porno but didn't break vow but i am feeling guilty because i am unable to control these thoughts ..don't know why they have come now ..is this a test or trouble ? if test then i  think i have failed and if trouble how to overcome this? please put some light and guide me on this path..

3) 3 days ago while meditating for 90 minutes i had a strange feeling that my breath was out of control and felt like something is running my body ..when i asked my Guru Ji he told me that it was my "KULDEV" who is with me
who entered in my body as i was doing jappa during meditation and he also told me that he wil help me in my life but then why i am having all these thoughts of watching porn? Do you believe in "KULDEV " ? If He is with me why can't i see him or talk to him ? Why i am deprived of his blessing ?
What should i do to see him or talk to him ? But my Grand pa who is also a Yogi doesn't believe me all these things and told me that this happened because of stress..what are your views and suggestion about these things ?

With Regards
Pranav