Moksha or other Goals

Hello Dhananjay,

I have been a pure vegetarian throughout my life till now and ive always been truthful and good in my deeds. I entered into the world of ayurved by learning about vata,pitta and kafa and ive properly balanced them all and ive experienced how powerful this knowledge is. Now I want to become a brahmachari but when I try to meditate my kundalini begins to rise. I dont want to attain moksha at so young age. Because let me tell you, I had tried to become a brahmachari and did meditation but i felt this energy flowing through my spine always. And one night my I saw very powerful white light in my dream. To be honest I did not like this experience and felt very scared because following things were happening :
1. No food tasted good
2. The affection to family members was fading
3. I was beginning to forget goals of my life

I dont want to attain moksha now because i want to do something for my economy (India) and be a contributor to it and follow the other three purposes of my life like artha, kama and karma. If I do become a brahmachari and attain moksha my life will never be the same. I will be so much carried away from wordly activities and all my ego and purpose of life will go away.

So what should I do ? Whenever i try to practice brahmachari my kundalini begins to rise because ive always eaten the right food and done good karmas. But I really want to prove my worth as a human and do something for the society before I go on for achieving moksha. Please help me to the best of your knowledge. I have many more questions but this is the biggest one I have. I know I have a lot of spiritual energy but to use it in what direction- for achieving moksha or for other purposes of my life (artha,kama,karma)