Difficulty in the world

Dear Sir,

I am aiming for complete surrender, unquestionable purity in mind and body, unbreakable. I fall short of this many many times and I feel ashamed and childish now as it feels immensely insane giving up what I receive from life in a state of brahmacharya.
It's a repeating of events and it goes like this, I swear of all hindrances and remain so for weeks not even months get bored and end up rebeling with silly alcohol or ciggarette (I feel I have conquered these although my little relapses say otherwise) I know these substances are pointless and only lead to destruction and lowliness yet i still get attracted to the flame like the moth after lowly thoughts get a hold.
I feel stress that I feel this is a mighty! test living in England with all its material wealth and easily accessible negative substances and women everywhere!
I quite frankly feel that is it even possible for me to attain brahmacharya living here working a job that leads to money which leads to property which leads to more desires, I see the monks practicing martial arts on TV and feel envious that these monks are living a well discipline life with the benefit of brotherly support in remote area. I'm Fed up of being surrounded by hedonists.
I have not experienced great wealth in this lifetime yet it is great compared to 3rd world. Do I have to experience millionaire lifestyle to renounce it all or can I just go somewhere that is simple and lovable?