Utter failure in Brahmacharya

OM Sir,

I am in a miserable ad pathetic state, as a result of constant sin and lapse (failure in brahmacharya) an depletion of the semen I am left utterly weak and have no desire to do anything.

I have almost non-existent confidence levels, am in a constant state of anxiety around people, cannot communicate properly with them etc
To make all this worse, as a result of this addiction to masturbation I become enraged at the slightest of things, a person merely looking at me can drive me to severe anger, in short all the typical symptoms one suffers when he fails in Brahmacharya/lives an evil life of sexual indulgence etc.
I feel like the lowest slime and have begun to hate myself, my life has become devoid of joy and I am unable to properly implement the correct spiritual practices -- and have little desire/will/ambition for them -- due to constant depression as a result of continuous sin and failure.

I wish to be totally free of all sex urges and desires, I have asked God to completely take them away, but it seems I still have them...
My life has become a miserable hell, and it is simply not worth living, I realise this is due to my own mistakes and sins etc.,
but I just cannot seem to break free of the addiction to masturbation, whatever techniques are possible/available I would try them to overcome this evil vice.

Much of this I believe stems from boredom, as I am unemployed and thus have very little to do; a viscous cycle.

Any advice you can give me to completely free myself of the sex desires I am very grateful for.